Hello Everyone,

I woke up fealing very grateful..the sun is shining..another spring like glorious day.

I turned on the CBC..Canadain 'Broadcasting Corp..for Americans..they have a podcast on the computer too but I'm listening to regular radio.

There is a lot of humour..and now, a show on forgiveness.

It's always been a puzzle to me because you can't "make " yourself get to a place of "forgiveness".

Very conscious radio show..great that you can get it on the computer..it's called "definitely not opera"...inside joke..because that's all they used to broadcast..to the Indians(First Nation..politically correct term) and Eskimos up north who can only get that channel...so people just wrote it off..but now it's getting pretty good.

Anyway..I digressed there

A feel grateful..even for feeling grateful...even though I'm still am in the middle of "Morgellons cleaning hell"...and my guy friend has finally given up after a year of this..

It's ok, he is part of that non committed Canadain male thing.(like from the 70's).so in the past now.

The forgiveness of self in yourself seems to be the core issue

Now they're onto... forgiving someone when you didn't quite mean it..and people can call in. Don't you love that?

I have received so much love and support and sharing from people in the group, I thank you from the bottom of my heart.

I can see that pattern of "collecting" things like my father..who lived through the depression and WW11..is holding me back.

Letting go...it's like ripping pieces of me off ...from a happier time..but it was in the past..so isn't real now..hard to really "get" though. I fell like I could cry and cry..not sure why..and it's not "depression"..but like a sweet vulnerablilty..hard to explain.

I hope I'll eventually triumph over these strange invader bugs...and they are "real". It's a good thing my father raised me to not have to have everyone agree with me..because I don't know how one could deal with the abuse and invalidation..but..hey it doesn't happen to everyone..there was one instance..re Summer of a doctor saying she had Morgellons..and she moved on to getting help.

Yay..it is possible...and the woman who won the court case in Texas..the judge saying it was a travesty how people with "M" were being treated.

My skin lesions are healing easier..now that I'm back on the antibiotic bactrim and handfuls of vitamins plus super..blender drinks some silver and mms.

Things a not flying on me from the ceilling as much now that I'm spraying it every night with hydrogen peroxide.

And I even have a bed, again..still buggy even with vinyl cover duck taped..but I'm getting there slowly.

Mr. C said he cleared his up (4years later) and what is hopeful..a few other conditions too.

It seems there are so many similarities to Lyme..there has to be a connection.

Time to do the borax bath..and get out on the bike to enjoy fresh air before the next cleaning thing.

Oh the best thing..my wonderful son-in-law called on skipe..and I know my daughter is in good hands..and said they pray for me every week..I was so touched they share their spirituallity and are deepening it and I see the compassion growing...so wonderful. I said..oh, that's what I was feeling. What is live for? It seems they are on the right track..developing love.

Take care...yes lets celebrate all victories.

Sincerely, Sherry